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I have been absolutely wrecked over the last few days with this one…

I spent the new year planning out my reading plan for 2018, and I had twelve books that I was going to finish (at minimum). Of these, 9 were written from an evangelical standpoint. The other three focused on leadership in general. I read the Preface and first chapter of Ordering Your Private World, and I put it down excited to pick it back up. I haven’t understood why I haven’t been able to pick it back up. As I was spending time in prayer, it hit me very quickly that I depend on heresay (not heresy) in many of these other books. While they are written by wonderful authors and many by people who have devoted their lives to spreading the message and Word of our Lord, Jesus Christ, I felt like I was being punched in the face for not digging deeper into the Word from Jesus.

John 17:17 Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth.

As I proceed in this new year, I have scrapped the reading list. I may pick one up from time to time, but I am devoting this year to a deeper understanding of who God is and His calling on my life. I am excited, and terrified, to diving in and really trying to comprehend His words and calling for me. Please pray for me as I go on this journey, as I humbly come before you declaring my sophomoric understanding of the greatest words ever given to us. Pray that I will no Him more deeply, understand him more fully, and follow Him more closely. I look forward to sharing what God is teaching me through my life as I throw down all of the excuses and truly go after him “no matter the cost” (which is a book David Benham sent me that I will read first when I need an extracurricular read!).

I love you all!


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